CALL ME WHAT YOU WANT TO!

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After coming out of prayer tonight, I was just laying back listening to “I Give myself Away” by William McDowell. And God had me recalling all the things that brought shame into my life. And the main thing that stood out to me was one thing that I didn’t mention in my testimony. And when I kept thinking about it, all I kept hearing was we over come by the Blood of the Lamb and the Word of OUR testimonies. (You see now, I’m steal beating around the bushes)
Well that thing WAS masturbation. Too many people that deal with it or have dealt with it don’t talk about it. And believe it or not A LOT of you do or have. Well me, IM EXPOSING YOU! (From the Root)

It started when I was about 12 or 13, when I had my 1st wet dream. When I woke up out of that dream that I had, I thought that I just had too much to drink before I went to sleep. I found out that, that was not the case when I notice the thickness and texture its contents. Then after that I wanted to know more.
Just like a drug, after that first high you find your self wanting to get higher. Or in other words for those of you that’s saying to yourself “I’ve never been high before”. Well look at it like this: the 1st time you had sex you wanted more sex. If you still don’t get my point then I don’t know what else to tell you.
The next thing I knew I stared having sex, but when I couldn’t get it I masturbated. Trying to fill a void in me that ONLY GOD can fill. After dealing with that for 10 to + years, I find myself with a hunger for God like never before and the ONLY way that I can truly get him is to kill the enemies plan(s) for my life. Even if it takes for me to put myself out like I am. So what do you think about me? Does that change the way you’re going to look at me? Will you shack my hand the next time I see you? What ever is best for you will fit me just fine. As long as I’m free from what you may think of me and the yoke in my life will make me a happy camper, in God’s camp.

(I’m not talking to nobody in particular when I asked those questions. But if you felt like I was talking to you then you may need to go to God and ask Him to assist you as He change the way you look at people. Because ME, I just want to be free.)