Thursday, January 28, 2010


This morning after prayer my mom was talking about how we as believers tend to keep our eyes fixed on our/others short comings. Its good to acknowlege that we do sin (thats humility). But why countinue to point out the same things in others? Its time to break free from a sin conscience mindset.

As I was reading in the book of Daniel today it dawned on me. When God delievered Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego from the furnace. Or when He delievered Daniel from the lions den. I notice how it wasnt anything they did to get out of these situations but they simply trusted in Gods goodness to deliver them. After speaking with a few people today about church, I realized the main reason why they dont attend is because Gods goodness has not been revealed to them. But if we (believers) keep our eyes fixed on sin what makes you thing that people are going to come into the true knowlege of Christ if His goodness is missing out of the picture.

Prime example: Daniel 6, the way that the administrators and high officers began searching for some sort of fault in the way Daniel did things. After searching for some sort of a short coming and realizing there was none it resorted in him being thrown into the lions den. But before being thrown in, notice how king Darius tried to save Daniel, but when it didnt work he had no choice. So he told Daniel before he had him thrown in, "May your God, whom you serve so faithfully, rescue you." This tells us that even doe king Darius wasnt a believer he had some revelation of Gods goodness.

Lets no longer be bound to pointing things out in others. THATS THE ACCUSERS JOB!!!!!!!!! But lets rest in Gods goodness and allow His love to help us to turn from sin in our lives.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Do your REALLY fear God?

As I’m beginning to come into the knowledge of what it TRULLY means to fear the Lord. I looked at my personal life, and I can say that “I” did not fear Him. Most of us say that we do. But if we examine our true motives of why we do some of the things that we do. The results are devastating.

But for the most part WE want to walk in the Glory of God, but with all that junk in our heart it would kill us. I have recently learned, before the Glory is revealed, it has to be divine order. My pastor talked with me briefly about bringing order to my life. But I was looking at the things around me. Thinking that I needed to get things around me in order. But as I TRIED to do so, other things begin to happen: Attitude change, disposition change, finding myself still struggling in some areas. I begin to cry out to God, asking Him why is it like this? For a moment I didn’t get anything b/c I didn’t want to know what it was, due to fear of change. Then as I simply submitted to Him, I noticed that my heart was the thing that needed the order (badly).

Most of the time people don’t fear God enough to allow His divine order to evade their hearts. Instead they bring order to the things around them. Thinking that life would be better. That is irrelevant and disrespectful to the Spirit of God. Because we are so focused on OUR wants that we can’t even hear what the Spirit is telling us what to do. Or we find ourselves still struggling in the same areas when Jesus already died on the cross for that thing.

I can go on and on about why some of us don’t fear God. But I believe we should just simple start from the basics and allow ourselves to be pliable for His use. Or be judged!

Sunday, August 30, 2009



After coming out of prayer tonight, I was just laying back listening to “I Give myself Away” by William McDowell. And God had me recalling all the things that brought shame into my life. And the main thing that stood out to me was one thing that I didn’t mention in my testimony. And when I kept thinking about it, all I kept hearing was we over come by the Blood of the Lamb and the Word of OUR testimonies. (You see now, I’m steal beating around the bushes)
Well that thing WAS masturbation. Too many people that deal with it or have dealt with it don’t talk about it. And believe it or not A LOT of you do or have. Well me, IM EXPOSING YOU! (From the Root)

It started when I was about 12 or 13, when I had my 1st wet dream. When I woke up out of that dream that I had, I thought that I just had too much to drink before I went to sleep. I found out that, that was not the case when I notice the thickness and texture its contents. Then after that I wanted to know more.
Just like a drug, after that first high you find your self wanting to get higher. Or in other words for those of you that’s saying to yourself “I’ve never been high before”. Well look at it like this: the 1st time you had sex you wanted more sex. If you still don’t get my point then I don’t know what else to tell you.
The next thing I knew I stared having sex, but when I couldn’t get it I masturbated. Trying to fill a void in me that ONLY GOD can fill. After dealing with that for 10 to + years, I find myself with a hunger for God like never before and the ONLY way that I can truly get him is to kill the enemies plan(s) for my life. Even if it takes for me to put myself out like I am. So what do you think about me? Does that change the way you’re going to look at me? Will you shack my hand the next time I see you? What ever is best for you will fit me just fine. As long as I’m free from what you may think of me and the yoke in my life will make me a happy camper, in God’s camp.

(I’m not talking to nobody in particular when I asked those questions. But if you felt like I was talking to you then you may need to go to God and ask Him to assist you as He change the way you look at people. Because ME, I just want to be free.)

Monday, August 10, 2009

Wrestling with God

In Genesis 32:22-32, Jacob found himself to be left alone after sending everything that he possessed across the stream one night. After sending everything that he possessed across, a man came and begun to wrestle with him. Jacob did everything in his OWN strength to win the tussle. But the man touched Jacob’s hip and wrenched it out of its socket. The man told him to let him go, for the dawn is breaking. But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”

As crazy as it may sound but ALL of us is wrestling with God at this very moment. I say this because we are a work in progress. God is purifying our hearts but we tend to fight against this process of perfection. Even if it’s as little as complaining in our own minds. But in God’s eyes, that’s as bad as complaining out loud.
God is telling us to send ALLLLL of that stuff across the river and call it rubbish, so that we can gain Christ and become one with Him. Also experience the mighty power that raised Him from the dead.

In the process that God sends us through we become broken. In Jacob’s case he suffered hip injury. When I look at that, I'm like man; I want that same hip injury. Sounds crazy doesn’t it? If you read and get a good understanding of what happen after Jacob received the hip injury you will see that his name changed to Israel. And when people seen him after that they probably looked at him and asked what happen to him, due to the fact that he didn’t walk like everybody else. But before he got the hip injury the man told him that dawn was about to break. So it’s letting us know that a new day is coming. A day when we will resurrect, a day when we are set apart and stand out from everything/body elses.

But first we have to wrestle with God/go through the process of perfection and loose that battle. If you find yourself not wrestling with God, you may need to examine yourself more and see what’s really going on in that so-called heart of yours.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Childhood War$

You're probably trying to figure out what I'm up to now. Well, I want to take a moment to talk about childhood wars. It’s so much I don’t know where to start.

Well let’s jump to the basics. Most American are born into this world without their parents present in their life. Either mom or dad is not there like they are supposed to be or both aren’t present. Don’t believe me? Take a good look at our society. Most of our teens are growing up not knowing where they are headed in life.
Example: There once was a boy who grew up with his grandmother. He used to always wonder where mom and dad was. But nobody never told him where and what they was doing. So he lived his childhood year’s quiet not really wanting to talk to anybody due to feeling like he was rejected and abandoned. Every chance that he got he strived to fit-in with everybody that was around him. Most of the people around him were negative role models. So you know where life took him!

Children who survive in this type of life often become independent and rebellious because they have learned in life to TRY to make it own their own. I say this because NO PERSON will ever care for you like a true mom or dad. And without them in your life, thats how you will feel. There are so many kids growing up now days without that mother or father role model in there life. And in the mist of that satan is using his best weapon that he has for them in their teenage years, sex and drugs.

If you have kids or want kids someday how would their life be?

Friday, May 1, 2009

Critical Point

Everyone reaches a critical point in life and they have to choose which way they are going to have to go after that. My critical point in life was when I was released from prison on Jan 13, 2008 at 11 am. When I walked through the gates I got a taste of freedom. But it was only for a short period of time. Around 11:30 am I found out that my only sibling (brother) was killed. Now that I think about it, while I was in prison I read a book about a guy with a back ground almost like mine and the same thing happen to him.

God has a way of allow things like that happen to us to get our attention on Him. But He only allows what He knows that we can handle happen to us. Some times we put ourselves in a predicament when we know that it’s not right, but instead we go right ahead and do it anyway. And in the mist of it, we hear that small but still voice in our head saying “DON’T DO IT, DON’T DO IT!!!!!!!!!”
Well for starters that’s God way of speaking to us when we are in the mist of sinning. Can you hear that voice speaking to you? Or is the only voice that you hear, that tells you to do something bad, the voice that you obey? If so repent, because the kingdom of Heaven is at hand! Give your heart to Christ! That’s all he desires from us. Just ask Him to come into your heart and to begin to purify it. Take a good look around you! What’s going on in the world today? Better yet, what’s going on in your life?

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Knowing satan Tactics

2 Corinthians 10:3-6
For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have DIVINE POWER to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we TAKE captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.

This scripture tells a lot about how we are suppose to act in life. Most of the time we allow the things of this world to come between the divine powers that Christ has given us. Our divine power is greater than an atomic bomb, but it acts as a weapon of mass destruction. Destroying everything that’s not Christ like that holds us captive in our personal lives.

Satan uses the things from our past against us, to cause us to fall deep into sin. With out Christ in our lives we truly wouldn’t know how to defeat him in our personal lives.
Think about the times when you are by your self and just so happen something you use to do/still do, leaps into your mind. What do you do? Do you bring that thought into the physical realm or do you cast it down?

The saying a mind is a terrible thing to waste is a true saying. Our mind CAN be like the gate way to hell. Its open 24/7, it never rest, things are coming in and out like a 7-11. That’s why it’s important that we stay in the word of God, to renew our mind set.

Philippians 3:12
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.
God is telling us to PRESS! Press even when you fell like you cant no more. When satan see that open gap when we are not pressing towards the goal, he activates the little bit of power that he do have. And the first thing that he attacks is our mind.

I highly encourage each of you to study the gospels and PRESS on to reenact Jesus life.