Thursday, January 22, 2009

My Life Testimony:

Growing up in Raleigh, NC was like living in hell to me now that I look back on the life I lived. I spent most of my childhood living with my grandmother. My mom and dad was around, but they wasn’t AROUND like a mom and dad should have been. I attended church but I thank God I didn’t understand what was really going on because the church was build on religion. Once I turned 12 I moved with my dad and I got exposed to ALOT of things. There was no discipline in our house hold cause dad was always at work. So my brother and me started running the streets, having sex with any girl that could walk, selling drugs and smoking weed/marijuana/pot. On my 13th birthday I got drunk for the 1st time, I got a fever of 103 degrees from that. My mom and dad found out but there was no discipline actions taken out on me from that. Once I got better it opened up allot of doors that could have lead me str8 to hell. I started skipping school, robbing people, stealing cars, selling drugs even harder, not thinking about a future, etc. When I turned 15 the unthinkable happen, I started getting in trouble with the police. That was the trap Satan had for my brother and me since we moved with our dad. I got put on probation in till I turned 17. I only had 1 year of probation but my rebellious ways prolonged it. Once off probation I dropped out of school thinking I was cool and trying to fit in with my cousin and our crew.All of a student I started getting robbed for chump change, but it made me look back on the things I was doing to people. In 2 of those robberies I thought I was going 2 be killed. The first one I had a 45 Blue Steel revolver to my head and I wasn’t going to give up anything. But the Holy Spirit told me to give it up, and I did! (I didn’t know what the Holy Spirit was at that time) A few days later the same guy that robbed me was on the news for killing someone in a robbery gone bad. I thought to myself that could have been me! The 2nd one happen in 2007, before I went to prison. It was somebody I grew up with that just got out of prison himself. We was together all that night in till his boys came up & was trying to get some cocaine. I guess they didn’t have no money cause they jumped on me and I started fighting back in till I seen the gun they had. You know me I gave it up! The whole time I was on the run from the law for violating my 2nd probation for selling weed/marijuana/pot to a police informer back in 2006, also a DWI charge I got in 2007. God is so amazing He speaks to us in allot of was. that night His Spirit told me not to go to the club. But I just got my income taxes and I was hard headed.A few months after that my brother went to jail. Then the law finally got a hold of me. A week after I was in jail my brother got out. Once in prison (on the yard) I found myself reading the bible and attending bible studies. But I didn’t really want Christ in my life I wanted out of that HELL whole. My brother and me was making some BIG plans for when I got out of prison. But the day of my release day, he was shot down and killed @ 1am. When I got out at 11am I was looking for him, but he was nowhere in sight. Once my mom told me what happen the only thing came to mind was revenge. I strapped myself with a 9mm and my mom had her 38 special. All the men in my family had a gun from 22's to AK47's. During My brothers funeral the people from the church he attended with his wife was in the crowd over 200 people. (Most of the people couldn’t fit into the church we was in.) I had a short talk with them but I didn’t want no church, I wanted revenge. A few weeks after my brothers murder God started softening up my heart even more. I gave my gun back to my cousin and gave my life to Christ. I didn’t think much of it in till the Spirit lead me to cut my dreads I had been growing for 8 long years on July 4, 2008. After I did that God shot me to another level. I felt like allot of burdens & bondages broke off me in that one act of obedience. Today my walk with Christ is steadily building up day after day. I just can’t get enough of Him! Even in the mist of losing my only sibling. But today I can TRULLY thank God for taking my brother, because I finally found my missing link I've been looking for, for 22 long and hurtful years.

1 comment:

  1. I thank God that He has inspired you to begin to open up and let the world know what the struggles of a young man and known by society to be a statistic are. and that you will come with a real and refreshing outlook on life with Christ in it. Keep up the good work.

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